Who Really Knows About Me?

Feel bored without friends.....some went to kk and some went for tuition....don't know what to do at home besides watching pps and listening to music...I wake up around 9am and open my computer, I don't know what to do because everyday I do the same thing with my computer....open Facebook and chat but this morning there's nobody to chat with....maybe all are busying....my mother don't let me go out anymore with my friends because spm is getting nearer and nearer....still left about 20 plus days only...I m wondering that after spm I will be leaving this place that I have live for more than ten years....I'm gonna leave my friends and to to another place....quite sad because cannot play with them anymore....I scared I will forget them in the future....I don't want to be like this...I want to day with them and there is a important person that I will miss most.....I swear that I will not forget about her....she is the first girl that I use my true my heart to love her...although we cannot become couple and many troubles occur during that time but i still love her....I also made my friends made into troubles because of this problem...I FORGIVE the guy but don't know why I still can't talk to him when I saw him...don't have anything to say with him....there are also many things in my heart that other of my friends don't know....I pretend to be happy,cheerful,playful to overcome my sadness and the pressure....who really knows about me???? The answer is "NOBODY"..... I try lots of method to cover my sadness....I choose to be a childish person.....I always been call dog because of my name but I have already used of that name since I'm small...I can accept what my friend friends done to me as long as it does not hurt me too deeply...I accept all the ways they treat me because I list them as my true hearted friends....but I don't know do they treat me as true hearted friends or nt....lastly I want to say that人生就像一场戏，因为有缘才相聚...珍惜你的朋友